Brain Farts.
feels like a very bloggy day..think I should unclog my mind but I can’t pour it all here..maybe just a little, I’ll try not to have mental diarrhea..haha..
1) it takes more effort to not think about it compared to just thinking about it, it shouldn’t be taking so much out of me..
2) I’m putting some things aside, on the shelf, whatever you wanna call it, it’s just not the right time..maybe one day? maybe not? we’ll just wait and see.
3) what’s wrong with just being friends?
4) I know where I am, I know what I want to do, but why do I always feel like I’m torn in between?
5) At times I wish that my classes started already, I’m feeling quite bored actually..want to do stuff but got nothing much to do, don’t have so much money to keep shopping also, feeling abit aimless..hmmm, maybe I just wanna go home..
Anyways, brain farts are fun..at least I get some things out..Time to look for things to do, I’ve never been good with just sitting still and not doing anything..gahhh!!! *runs around in circles*
It’s Official.
My holidays, I mean..Got my results for EOS 3 yesterday evening and I passed!! woohoo!! Praise God! couldn’t have done it without Him and all of you who prayed for me and walked with me through it..thank you. I’m actually excited about going to sem4 right now..we’ll see how long this excitement lasts..haha! Am updating from Kuching now, am here for a few days to attend my brother’s wedding..was in Kapit for a day and it was fun..I’ve always thought that Kapit feels like paradise, everytime I get there, time stops, perfect runaway spot =P
This is one of my favouritest fruit in the whole wide world..only found in Kapit, and it tastes AWESOME
Received something from a good friend of mine this morning and thought it’s pretty cool so I’m gonna share it with you all..
21.
Number of significance when you’re playing blackjack.
Number of times to repeat an act to break or form a habit.
Average number of days you are working in a month.
Exact total number of fingers and toes to qualify as weird.
The one in a lifetime when you officially and lawfully begin your life journey as an adult.
Congrats. May this year be your best year yet and a year of restful increase.
Here’s to an awesome holiday, a great semester 4 and an amazing year ahead. =D
First Jan Two-o-one-o
On the first day of 2010…
I saw the first sunrise of the year. A bunch of us went up Broga Hill and it was awesome! Not a very challenging climb except that there were alot of people who were there with the same intention so we were stuck in human jam..Was the first to reach the first peak (3 peaks in total), and was super glad that I got there on time to catch the sun rise (I cheated a little on some parts, I ran up =P)..It meant SO much to me..Can’t really express how I felt at that moment but the significance, overwhelmed me a little..just standing there, taking a deep breath while the sun crept up, I was ready…ready to leave things behind, ready to cross over, into something new, into the unknown..but one thing I’m sure and I felt it right there and then, I’m loved.
2010, will be my last year in KL..one more year for me to see change, to impact someone’s life, to be different, to make a difference. Am I ready? I don’t know. I want to be. “Prepare me for what lies ahead, everything’s so uncertain but I know You have it all planned out, You know where this is going, help me stay on track.”
2010, I’ll be 21..the beginning of the “best years of my life” so they say..I hope I start well, I hope I can look back at this year and say I’m proud of myself..I’m sure there will be alot of changes, things added into my life (like responsibilities and stuff la, stop thinking otherwise =P), things subtracted, multiplied and divided. It’s time to grow up, mentally, spiritually and emotionally..and to stop monkey-ing around..time to be more serious! haha.. “Please make me the person You want me to be, this year, help me be better..A better daughter, sister, friend, disciple, leader, classmate, etc. I want Your best for me.”
Just a few pictures I took..nice place..would love to go again soon..Happy New Year everyone..=)
New Year, New Life.
As 2009 came to an end..couldn’t help but feel super relieved..I stood there, watching the fireworks, people and noise all around me, but in my head, in my heart, a thousand things went past and suddenly, it just felt like I could release them..like it’s just a mark in my history, like I could move on..and it felt great.
2009, was a very long and hard year for me…SO many things happened, both good and bad…some I can’t do anything about, some I wish I could undo and some I wish would never ever happen again..Looking back at the year, I’ve experienced so much, I’ve gained, I’ve lost and I’ve learnt so much..maybe one day I’ll look back at this year and be grateful for it but for now, in all honesty, I thought 2009 was one of the toughest year I’ve ever been through..and I’m just so glad it’s over..I’m really praying that 2010 will be much better than 2009..
As for resolutions..don’t think I’ll have any..but there are things that I wanna see in my own life this year..some changes, improvements, additions, subtractions..not convenient to reveal it here but yea, maybe I’ll share when we’re going into 2011..and see if I achieved any of the things..=P really looking forward to a whole new “life”..Welcome, 2010!! I’ve been waiting for you for quite some time now..Am glad you’re here..=)
De-cember
I wrote a whole long page of stuff. Pressed “command + a”, “delete”. I guess some things are better left unsaid.
I know it’s Christmas time, but I’m so not feeling it..got a message just last night saying “KK is different without you..” but you know what? I’m different without KK..Christmas is different without family around..sigh~ After everything that has happened this year, still not letting me go eh? Just gotta mess me up till the very end? well, you know what, 2009? Bring it on, you’re ending soon anyways..
And…last but not least, just gotta say…EOS IS KILLING ME….=S
4.3.2.1
Was internet-less the past 4 days cos I was away in Kuala Kubu Bahru Hospital doing my rotations..It’s somewhat like a camp, had to stay there for 4 days and 3 nights, but not really also, don’t know how to explain..so many things happened there and I don’t wanna flood twitter or facebook so just blog about it lah..=)
I survived :
4 days…
- without a proper bed, pillow and blanket.
- of cold baths, lots of sweat and no air-cond
- with 6 other awesome people in a room
- of mosquitoes attacking me, even with repellent on
- of minimal studying =(
3 days…
- “working” in the hospital..clerking patients, talking to them and doing physical examinations
- stalking pregnant ladies hoping that there will be a delivery so that we can watch
- stalking A&E for interesting cases
- eating almost every kind of food they had in the town. well, that was fun..let me elaborate..we went to town, and walked around the whole area looking for good stuff and trying out almost everything..we had ice-cream (which was not that great), waffles (so-so), taufu bakar (was ok, sotong was nice), kaya puffs & tau sar piah (yummy!), and some dai chau place with annoying music where we went for 2 nights straight..
- irritating nurse Rita and giving her headaches =P
- seeing Dr Lim and learning from her..”Luck, and Enthusiasm” *with both fist up in the air* her famous phase.
There was/were:
- 2 mat rempits who got into a very bad accident and gave us the chance to see awesome suturing..
- 5 patients who let us do physical examinations on them
- 2 patients with really interesting findings
- 1 gecko that scared Dr Lim like mad and woke everyone up this morning
- 1 waterfall outing that was totally random and it wasn’t really a waterfall but we had fun
- 1 long night of chit-chatting, with a lot of interesting “findings” 
- many awesome friendships made, memories to keep and experiences to share
All in all, I’d say it was quite a good trip even though I really wanted to go home so badly on the first day..even thought of running away..haha! but yeah, I think it opened up my eyes and mind to a lot of things which will not be shared here and I really do appreciate the time we spent together, just doing what we have to do and having fun at the same time..=)
Now it’s back to life and reality = EOS in 2 and a half weeks time. ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
A quick one.
It’s the last half an hour of the last day of November 2009..which means exactly 25 days to Christmas and 28 days to my major exams..I don’t think I’m on time with my studying all but I’ll trust and believe for the best because I know that He wants to give me the best..really hope and pray that everything will turn out fine..or more than fine..
December this year will be a whole new experience for me..my first time spending Christmas away from home, away from my family..really don’t know what to expect..there are a few invitations here and there but I thought everyone spend Christmas with their families wan? don’t know lah..maybe KL is different..we’ll see..so yeah, will update again soon if I find the time to..will be heading to Kuala Kubu Baru next Monday to Wednesday for clinical rotations..I DON’T WANNA GO……but no choice. sigh~ I hope I’ll survive to tell the story..=P till then, adios!
