Goodbye 2

Have you ever wondered what it’s like to have 2 funerals in less than a month? Step into my shoes and you’ll know.

My uncle passed away last Saturday, 28 February 2009, at 6pm after battling cancer for a few months..Refer to 2 post before this and you’ll know my grandpa just passed away in February also..I’ve never been in a harder situation compared to this, seriously. Being in IMU is already a very very tough thing to deal with, some more with the juniors’ orientation (where I’m an orientation officer), and with another 7 weeks till my exams, all the PBLs, Labs, catching up with studies and on top of that, 2 funerals?!?! Someone really wants to kill me I think..Please stop this prank right now, I beg you..I’ll be good, I promise..PLEASE.

My uncle’s life was an awesome testimony..how he came back to God and totally depended on Him was truly inspiring and I’m really glad to know that now he’s in a much better place and that he didn’t have to suffer the pain any longer..One of the last few memories I have of him was when I went back to Kuching for Chinese New Year in January..he was already in ALOT of pain then, he couldn’t get out of bed and was really weak..but he knows how much I love to eat the stewed pork that he made, so he asked me one day if I want it to be the dark sauce one or just the pork cooked and eat with soya sauce..I was so shocked that he asked me cause I didn’t know what to answer..he can’t cook already so what was I supposed to do? I thought about it for awhile and told him that I like the dark sauce one and told him that he didn’t have to cook for me because auntie is already preparing it..she was actually, so that made him happy..I really wanted to help him as much as I could..I did more leg lifting, wheel chair pushing and stuff like that..couldn’t do much but I’m glad I did..Never would’ve gotten the chance to do so again if I didn’t..

The other thing that made me cry everytime I think about it is the whole scene when I said goodbye to him on the day I left Kuching..I didn’t wanna breakdown or anything like that that but when I said “Ni Gio, I’m leaving..” I started sobbing like a baby…He cried as well and that was the first time I’ve seen him cry in my whole entire life..that made me cry even more..I gave him a hug, told him that I’ll be praying for him, ask him to take care and then I left..and that was the last time I saw him.

“Ni Gio, I know that you’re already in heaven with Ngiu and Duai Gio..You are truly and greatly missed back here..I really wished I could’ve done something to made you feel better, maybe even saved you..but I couldn’t..I’m glad that you don’t have to suffer all the pain that the cancer is giving you anymore but on the other hand, it’s hard to lose someone you love..I’m so sorry I couldn’t make it back for your funeral, I really wanted to be there with the family but it was too rushed and I have a test today..I know you’d understand..I admire you for being so strong in spite of everything that has happened to you, and how you learnt to pray and cry out to God everytime you were in pain or needed comforting..I know you asked God to take you back home and He did..I’m really gonna miss you, see you again someday ok?”

As for me, I’ll just have to keep my head up, my spirit strong and face whatever’s coming my way with a big smile on my face and a bigger God by my side..Truly “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”.

*thank u everyone for the sms-es, skype msgs, calls, prayers and encouragements..you don’t know how much that means to me..really appreciate it.