Technical Difficulties..

Posted: April 30, 2009 in Of Change, Of Life
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Updating from KK…Am on study break now..Why do they even call it a break when it’s actually not a break? I’m sleeping at 3 or 4am every night, can’t sleep well cos I’m worried, feeling super stressed out cos I don’t know what to do, trying to cramp everything I can into my little brain, and the worst thing is…

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This. It’s right outside my house..and everyday when I’m TRYING very hard to memorise or remember something, they’re banging away..”The cardiac cycle is…*BAM!*” And there’s another one right beside it, they’re widening the roads right outside my house..and on top of that, my genius neighbour’s doing renovations…how awesome right? Due to these technical difficulties, I have to go back to KL earlier than the actual time..Next monday I’ll be flying back dy..*sniff* will miss my bed and the good food..

Besides all this exams stuff, banyak lagi going on in my mind..

Last Sunday was like a huge turning point in my life…Won’t go into details but during evening service, half way through the message I was already tearing..(Pr Andy did a great job that night, thanks!) and during the altar call, I was crying buckets dy..God spoke so clearly to me and I really felt like alot of my burdens were lifted off..Just felt like someone finally understands how I feel, the stress, pressure, disappointments, He knows…

He also told me about something else in my life, something that requires me to die to myself, something that I had to decide there and then if I’d obey, it’s so serious that it’s serious..everything was SO real that day, I don’t know why but I just couldn’t stop crying..not even to sing the last praise song..Don’t think I’ve ever cried that long in a public place before..I guess it didn’t matter cos I still had “stuff” that He wanted to deal with..and now, I have decided. So it’s all cool..I know I might have confused you, I’m sorry, maybe one day when everything works out, I’ll share ok? =)

So yeah, that’s a little update on what I’ve been up to..actually just so that I know I’m alive and not insane yet.. =P Here’s to another one week plus of crazy studying, late nights and zombies! Bring it on……

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