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Posted: December 16, 2009 in Of emo-ness, Things From My Heart
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I wrote a whole long page of stuff. Pressed “command + a”, “delete”. I guess some things are better left unsaid.

I know it’s Christmas time, but I’m so not feeling a message just last night saying “KK is different without you..” but you know what? I’m different without KK..Christmas is different without family around..sigh~ After everything that has happened this year, still not letting me go eh? Just gotta mess me up till the very end? well, you know what, 2009? Bring it on, you’re ending soon anyways..

And…last but not least, just gotta say…EOS IS KILLING ME….=S

When It Rains…

Posted: August 20, 2009 in Of emo-ness, Of Life
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it pours…cats, dogs, elephants, whales…whatever. Everything seem to just go the other way..And if you could tell by now, yeah, I just had one of the suckiest day ever. I won’t go into exact details but I decided to “talk” to my problems as if they’re actual human beings..Give them a piece of my might think I’m crazy but I’m not..maybe, just maybe I’ll feel better after this..

1) you’re really killing me…throwing everything at me all at once..I really feel like I’m drowning, I can’t take any of this anymore.. Please stop before someone actually dies or something…There’s something called time management and I hope that you’ll pick that up and there’s also something called that before trying, might be a little too hard for you..I’m sorry for being mean, I just strongly dislike you..

2) I’m sorry things went that way..I don’t take it seriously but maybe sometimes, some things just mean more than it should..So I’m just gonna let it slide..Maybe it doesn’t even bother you or it wasn’t even an “issue”, and I don’t think it should if that’s the case, awesome..Let’s just move on with life..

3) you’re the devil in my life…you think you’re super smart and super awesome in every way but guess what? you’re NOT. you can’t even count for goodness sake, and you talk to us as if we’re worthless piece of crap that you HAD to “impart” to? puh-lez… I know you know alot, and you’re far more experienced but there’s one important thing that you might lack..A HEART. What’s the use of scolding and shouting when you can just tell it nicely? What’s with the calling of names? How would you feel if someone called you hopelessly hopeless, stupid, liar, idiot?? Start treating people the way you want them to treat you can or not? always telling people about respect and humility..but in reality, there are 4 fingers pointing back at yourself..Learn something from Michael Jackson ok? He’s starting with the man in the mirror, and I suggest that you do that too..

Thanks to all of those contributors, today was not a good day for me..And you know in life, there’s always this one person that you can always turn to, go to, no matter what in the world happened? someone you’re just so comfortable with that you won’t even bother if that person wants to hear you out or not, you’ll just go ahead anyways? I call these people “bins”..not that they take crap or whatever but they’re just there whenever you need them and you’ll throw everything at them and it’s fine..everyone needs a bin..and I just found out today, that I don’t really have one..well, I used to have one but things change and people change so yeah, now I don’t..but it’s alright, my blog’s here all the time..maybe this is my new bin? hmmm….

I hate this part right here..

Posted: January 31, 2009 in Of emo-ness, Of Life
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Sorry for using your song, Pussycat Dolls..

but I really do feel this way..I don’t like saying goodbyes, not before, not now when my family is going through such a hard time..I really wished there was something I could do, some way I could help, guess not..After a few weeks back on the east side, I’m really enjoying the family reunions, the good food, the slumber-ness, hang outs and I’m back on the west side more lazy days, no more family, no more astro, no more home cooked food, no more guitar…*sniff*

Was really sad to leave Kuching today, weather didn’t help..while i was waiting for the plane to take off, it was pouring outside…As the rain flowed, the tears did as well..was not easy to say those kinda goodbyes when you don’t know when you’ll see them again, if u know what I mean..So yeah, once again, life goes on, I’ve gotta do what I’m here to do…just wish my family is here with me..feel quite lonely sometimes when it’s just me and the four walls..

I don’t want to be emo, but I can’t help it…I wanna go home…


Posted: January 7, 2009 in Of emo-ness, Of Life, Of Personal
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Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu

Heard this song on the radio today, went home and youtubed it…and u know wat? I love it!! Super nice song la...Sempurna by Andra & The Back Bone..

[On the other hand]

I don’t wanna be like this but I can’t help but feel this way, it messes me up and it wouldn’t go away…no matter how hard I beg, plead for it to be gone, it’s still there…Questions, assumptions that came from nowhere, fills my head like there’s no tomorrow…it’s just life maybe? but i don’t want my life to be this way..why can’t things be simpler? why must everything be so complicated? Boy, am I glad that I’ll be away for 3 least I’ll get some time to clear my mind, get things right, get my heart fixed..I’ll be a better me when I get back..i hope.

It’s gonne be You and me time again…*goes into closet*