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Brain Farts.

Posted: January 20, 2010 in Of Life, Of Personal
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feels like a very bloggy day..think I should unclog my mind but I can’t pour it all here..maybe just a little, I’ll try not to have mental diarrhea..haha..

1) it takes more effort to not think about it compared to just thinking about it, it shouldn’t be taking so much out of me..
2) I’m putting some things aside, on the shelf, whatever you wanna call it, it’s just not the right time..maybe one day? maybe not? we’ll just wait and see.
3) what’s wrong with just being friends?
4) I know where I am, I know what I want to do, but why do I always feel like I’m torn in between?
5) At times I wish that my classes started already, I’m feeling quite bored actually..want to do stuff but got nothing much to do, don’t have so much money to keep shopping also, feeling abit aimless..hmmm, maybe I just wanna go home..

Anyways, brain farts are fun..at least I get some things out..Time to look for things to do, I’ve never been good with just sitting still and not doing anything..gahhh!!! *runs around in circles*

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Dream.

Posted: November 16, 2009 in Of Life, Of Personal, Things From My Heart
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Do you have one? I’m sure you do..everyone has at least one dream..and for me, I think I have quite a few..Some are on the more material side like I wanna own a nice house one day where I can see the sunset and take pictures everyday (and that includes me owning a nice DSLR =P) while others are more on the spiritual/personal side like…nah, I won’t say..but yeah, was just thinking about my dreams and how I’m being molded and shaped to get to that place..it’s not easy, seriously, but I think I’d rather go through it all than not..hmmm..still thinking..am on one of those random thinking sessions..=P

Just had my summative on Friday…was quite hard but then I did my best and I’m just gonna leave the rest to God..tried something new this time, something I learnt from church not too long ago..I claimed God’s best for my life and asked Him for peace and really just relied on Him..I’ve never gone for an exam being this calm before..seriously. so yeah, will update again when I get my results..hopefully I’ll get the testimony I’m asking for 😉

“Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.” Psalms 37:4

Lord, You know all the desires of my heart..whether or not I’ve told anyone, You know. So help me to delight myself in You, prepare me for the things that are in my “list” and help me live a life worthy of my calling. Thanks! =)

 

Tiada Seperti-Mu

Posted: November 11, 2009 in Of Personal
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This song has been playing on my iTunes for the past few days..really meaningful and really encouraging..just thought I’d share it..I’m alive and well by the way, just in case you’re wondering..=)

Anug’rahMu kepadaku, tak pernah berubah
PerbuatanMu terlukiskan dalam hatiku

Tercengangku dibuatMu, kagum padaMu
Tak ada hal di hidupku terluput dariMu

Kau indah, Kau mulia, tiada sepertiMu
Kuingin hidupku menyenangkan Mu

Kau terawal dan terakhir
Pencipta sgalanya
Sluruh bintang pun bersinar oleh ucapanMu

Engkau pun mengasihiku, penulis hidupku
Tak henti segenap nafasku menyembahMu slalu

Kupuji, Ku sembah, tiada sepertiMu
Kuingin hidupku menyenangkanMu

Sgala puji, sgala hormat, segnap hatiku menyembahMu
Terimalah segnap hidupku sbagai persembahan yang hidup

Bukan kehendakku, namun kehendakMu
Hidupku bagiMu

Kau indah, Kau mulia,
kuingin hidupku menyenangkan Mu

-GMB-

This is me.

Posted: October 28, 2009 in Of Life, Of Personal
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Lately, I haven’t been the Eunice that everyone knows..maybe it’s because of the things that I’m going through, or the change of lifestyle that’s been going on or maybe, it’s because I’ve finally got it..how to be more serious..I keep saying that I want to but I’ve never really succeeded..maybe now I have..finally.

I don’t know. We’ll see how it goes, I’ll give it some more time. Just thought I should share that, and take a short 15mins off my studying also. =)

It’s been a long while since I’ve blogged..doesn’t mean that I have nothing happening or nothing to say..just too many things happening and no time to say..Well, just thought I should let u all know that I’m well and doing fine..going through a lot lately but am learning how to manage myself, others, expectations, time, and all that jazz….

Things off my mind that I can remember and are significant enough to be on this post.

1) Had a good lunch with Elder Shirley recently..talked about alot of things that have been on my mind and my heart..some of which I’ve been keeping to myself for the longest while..It did feel really good getting it off my chest and just clearing some things up..felt really encouraged to continue on with this “fight” and am looking forward to an amazing future..

2) Elder Shirley’s huddle girls had a meet up/catch up/hang out/secret mission outing the other night..I haven’t laughed so hard in such a long time, had SO much fun..we should do it again yea? hehe…Thanks so much for that night out..was super stress-free and for that few hours there, I got to get my mind off the things that have been on my mind..so proud and blessed to part of this awesome family! =)

3) Yesterday, got the chance to go to Taylor’s CF to share about CampusRevo..that was cool..Could be a once in a lifetime opportunity, am glad I went..and IMU HOMEs was awesome too last night..I thoroughly enjoyed myself..laughed so much and everyone did SO well!! so proud of you all!! really believing that IMU Homes will explode soon! *smiles*

4) got another picture of my nephew-to-be from my brother yesterday. This time can see his head, nose and he’s quite big already..looks more like a human than a tadpole..=P but it’s all the more personal when I’m learning about the development and all, and I get updates about one that’s going on..It’s so amazing..I don’t know how to explain this feeling..everytime I think about this, I want to do better..for them. The picture is my phone’s wallpaper now, ask me to show you if you wanna see..

I think that’s all..summarized version of my week..will update again soon. I promise =)

“I don’t want to think that it could happen when it wouldn’t..so here’s another one of my “form-less” dream, please hover over it.”

Misses.

Posted: October 3, 2009 in Of Personal, Things From My Heart
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I still find it difficult to hold back the tears when they talked about you just now at dinner. I’m supposed to let it go, to go on with life, but I guess it’s not that easy to forget someone who’s so close to the heart. They were talking about how you showed your love in the weirdest ways ever but the message still got through and we know that you loved us. Like the times when you packed my favourite green longans in a big box all the way from Kapit just because you know I love them, or times when you secretly brought durians on the plane just because you know it’s the best kind and you want us to have it. I don’t know when I’ll ever get to eat the green longans again but I know that if I ever do, I’ll think about you every single time.

How’s the view up there? Must be pretty cool eh? I wished you get to be at Abel’s wedding, I know you would have loved to..and I know I promised you some things, I’ll keep the promise. Basically, I just wanted you to know that…

I MISS YOU.

Revelation.

Posted: September 17, 2009 in Of Personal, Things From My Heart
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There are only some things in life that can make you tear or feel something deep down inside, and I know I experienced one of those things for me today..It could be totally ridiculous to some, nonsense to others but it meant so much to me..

In between classes today, we had an opportunity to watch the video that the Laos team made about their trip..was the trip that I was supposed to go on but couldn’t in the end due to some technical difficulties..I was super sad when I didn’t get to go but that’s another story altogether..They showed videos and pictures of what they did and stuff and some people were complaining that it was taking too long..but while I watched, I couldn’t help but hold back my tears..if it weren’t for the people around me who were like “ehh..why the video so long wan..?” I think I would’ve cried..It wasn’t because I was there during the trip and I felt like I miss the place and was emo..I don’t really know why but my heart just went out to the people there..

If you know me well enough, you’ll know that I get really upset when I hear about people spending money on useless things and wasting money like no one’s business..it’s not because I judge them or anything but I know that there are people out there who can’t even afford to buy proper clothes, don’t even have a place to stay and there are kids out there who eat plain flour and think that it’s the nicest thing in the world (this one’s closer to home, I saw that at our very own OA trip) so don’t talk about social status and all..we’re all under one BIG family, living in one BIG home called Earth. Why can’t we do our part to make it a better place?

I’ve always liked going for mission trips and stuff but I think today, I just knew it..like so super clearly..that this would be something I wanna do in the future..I want to help these people, I want them to live better lives, I want to do my part in making this world a better place..I don’t know what, where and how exactly yet but I know that I want to.

“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.”

This is my dream. Without form, void and dark. Please hover over it, Lord.

Baby2

Here’s the 2nd picture of my nephew-to-be..He’s now 11cm big..
would love to bring to him on some mission trips next time..would be quite cool eh? =)