Sorry I haven’t been updating..was SUPER busy during the exams and after exams, just felt really lazy..even now..so I just wanna say..
I’M ON HOLIDAY!!!!
yeah, that’s all..have a great weekend people =P
Sorry I haven’t been updating..was SUPER busy during the exams and after exams, just felt really lazy..even now..so I just wanna say..
I’M ON HOLIDAY!!!!
yeah, that’s all..have a great weekend people =P
The previous post made me sad.
It’s gone to blog heaven now.
2 days till summative and honestly…I’ve never been so stressed out in my whole entire life..
I was in the library today longer than I’ve ever been in the past 9 months..
Today, I cried. Didn’t know I was that weak.
I wished it was easier but wishes don’t come true.
It’s 11:30pm now, I don’t plan to sleep till 3am or 4am.
I’m gonna go study. Bye.
so here I am right…Spending the first 40 minutes of my birthday studying about B-lymphocytes and the humoral response..and the rest of the hour writing this blog post…awesome start, Eunice..just awesome..=P
well, these past few days, quite alot of ppl have asked me “so how does it feel to be growing another year older?” or “how’s it like not being a teenager anymore?” or something along that line..and my answer to all of them was “Honestly, I don’t know..” seriously, I don’t..cos i haven’t had time to even think about getting older or being 20..there’s SO much things going on recently that I don’t even have time to sit down quietly and think about what’s next..(got quiet time to pray and read bible la but that’s another story altogether)
So this would be my attempt to answer those questions and give myself some “thinking time”….
#1 : NO..this couldn’t be..I’m not turning 20…stop bluffing..
#2 : Why is my “1” bending down?! stand up straight!! *smashes no.2 like there’s no tomorrow*
#3 : Please lah..make my birthday later can? make everyone forget my age,please…??
#4 : Sigh~ can’t do anything about it dy la…I’m an old fart..*cries*
#5 : Actually being 20 is awesome!! Think about all the possibilities..Woohoo!!
OK, that was my attempt..it became the 5 stages of birthday grief..haha..I tried…..Epic Fail. It just hasn’t really sunk in yet that I’m a year older now..maybe when I start feeling it I’ll blog about it ok? for now, I’ll just take my chill day as it comes..Thanks for all the wishes and msgs that’s keeping me awake at 1:22am you guys rock, u know that? =D
SO little time, SO much to do..
1) got AIR topic to finish by end of this month.
2) Summative 2 is coming up in April
3) EOS in May (Major exam..=S)
4) Revo is in about a week’s time
5) CPR Practical Exam on the 28th
I really don’t know how I can do this without You. There’s still so much more actually, but these few are the major ones.. Have been feeling very quite stressed out lately, feel like I can’t catch up with my studies, worried bout how I’ll do in my end of semester exam, and I’ve got so many more other things to handle, to look after and stuff..it gets scary at times and I feel like just giving up..sometimes I wake up in the morning, having no motivation what so ever cause it feels like the day ahead is so super heavy and I’ll somehow drown, crash or burn..but I find strength not from the things I see or myself, but in the One that’s greater than anything or anyone I’ll ever know..In Him, I find my courage to stand, to face my future and to believe.
I know that some people might say that how I’m living right now is crazy and probably stupid but then I can’t imagine myself without all these..Life would be SO boring eh? I can’t say that it’s easy for me..it’s really not..but I’m determined to pull through, praying for a miracle to happen, and waiting for my testimony..Heard from someone recently that “God puts us through tests so that He can give us testimonies” so here we go!
Holy Spirit, teach me how to…
Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna…
Heard this song on the radio today, went home and youtubed it…and u know wat? I love it!! Super nice song la...Sempurna by Andra & The Back Bone..
[On the other hand]
I don’t wanna be like this but I can’t help but feel this way, it messes me up and it wouldn’t go away…no matter how hard I beg, plead for it to be gone, it’s still there…Questions, assumptions that came from nowhere, fills my head like there’s no tomorrow…it’s just life maybe? but i don’t want my life to be this way..why can’t things be simpler? why must everything be so complicated? Boy, am I glad that I’ll be away for 3 weeks..at least I’ll get some time to clear my mind, get things right, get my heart fixed..I’ll be a better me when I get back..i hope.
It’s gonne be You and me time again…*goes into closet*
03/01/09
It’s already the 3rd day of the new year, and honestly, I personally think that it hasn’t hit me yet that it’s the new year.. I can remember to write 09 behind dates in journals or notes, I know that I’m gonna be older this year, I know that I’m on holiday… maybe that’s why…The holidays…it messes up your mind…*eye twitch*
BUT! I’m having fun…=P Just got back from a 2 days trip to Cameron Highlands with a bunch of crazy awesome people..and seriously..it was the greatest day of our lives!! haha..the whole trip was filled with eating, taking pictures, playing games, laughing..seriously, I’ve never laughed SO hard before…everyone was rolling on the floor in tears, stomach cramps..was super funny man..Thunder!! LOL so yeah, I reckon I had an awesome start to my year..=)
Now for my new year’s list of things to achieve…No new year’s resolutions for me, they never happen..haha..
1) Be a better person. Love my family, friends, not-so-friend-friends, more. Treat them like how I would want them to treat me.
2) Grow deeper in my walk. I think I’ve grown quite abit in 2008 and I’d want that to continue, don’t wanna stay put or go backwards but to move forward, to discover more things, to love God more each day, to understand what He has in stored for my life, to be able to be an encouragement to people around me, to love and care for the people that has entered my life one way or another, to be an example like it’s said in 1 Tim 4:12, I just wanna be more than what I already am..
3) Work harder in uni. I must admit that since my course started, I haven’t really been the “medical student” that I should be. Too playful for my own good, didn’t have a good balance between studies and fun. So this year, I want to be more consistent in my studies, get better grades, get my scholarship, work hard and play hard at the same time.
There should be more but the ones I’ve listed down are the more important ones.. I’ve got more written down but I think i’ll keep them to myself =P maybe next year if I’ve achieved them, I’ll tell you about it..how’s that? haha..really looking forward to a fully awesome 2009 ahead!! *big smile*
I’ll add some pictures we took during Christmas like i promised..Go see the rest on facebook..haha